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Friday, September 24, 2004

Some thoughts in the midst of the nite......
I have a email called miracle_dreams since year 2000.
That is a meaning for it.
I like the word miracle.
I don't know why.
It remind me of Kenny G album called " miracle".
Dreams. Not dreaming but a goal in life that fills with much passion and hope.
I have a lot of dreams but they seems to be impossible.
When things is so impossible to achieve, we hope for miracle isn't it?
That's y called miracle_dreams.
Miracle is truly a wonderful word. It leave hope for the hopeless. Even the least possible.
I thank god for His kindness on giving miracles to the world.
I believe there is miracle. You , yourself is a miracle because u are unique in the world. When u disappear, no such person like u will exist in the world again in the identical fashion.

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Went for an interview last week, sounds like my dream job.It's Bold and adventurous. MAybe not. I will not disclose but I hope I can finish this before I can go anywhere that seems "normal" for most people. i want something in life where there is boredom avoided. Where everyday u struck in the traffic, in mrt , in bus..waiting waiting waiting .. reach the work place , I will give a gloomy face because I had experience an unpleasant ride to work. Everyday. Going to work is challenging at first as there are new things to learn but soon , it get dead stagnant. Like prison. prison better huh? I want a place no one knows me. But seems, interpersonal relationship is so complex that I wan to avoid all. Doing temp job all the place, trying to find bits and pieces of myself.
Then I finally know something: I am still young. I have enough time to explore, do the thing that is out of your limit , beyond your imagination. Till a certain period to settle down. 9 to 5 job? lol , u still have ample of time to do that in your life. Boredom scared the shit out of me , this is what I have found in 9 to 5 temp job(any). I just can't stick my butt on thaT same place, same chair everyday.Ok, my brain is on my butt. Torturing man!

If we are bold and adventurous, we may indeed encounter the risks & dangers. But then, we would develop stable roots in the ground, and grow tall and mighty. Our lives would be rich & dynamic. Every day would open up fresh horizons for us, and we would taste the marrow of life. If we are overly-cautious and self-preserving, it may be possible to avert certain disasters. But you only need one small 'fly' to finish you off. Even if that doesn't happen, we would live a life of fear and suspicion. We would remain small, incapable of benefiting others with the huge potential for growth that's trapped inside us. And what is a life lived vainly slinking around in the shadows? Try not to take everything so seriously. Relax and have fun, add values to ur life. You will find that situations you thought would be horrible may actually turn out to be enjoyable & a blessing in disguise. Remember that a big part of success lies in your attitude. If you convince yourself that things will be horrible, they probably will be. You are the only one who can make the decision to be happy. Regardless of how you may think, you always have this control.Sure, you'll have setbacks along the way, 'Taking risks is scary, but it is not as scary as standing still for 20 years,' 'How many people do you know who are still caught up in doing the same thing, with the same people, day after day, and talking about 'one day' when they find their dreams to arrive? Ordinary people wait for their dreams to show up, and extraordinary people go out and pursue their dreams.
Extraordinary people hold themselves accountable for their choices; their actions; their destination.
They don't wait for 'one day' because that day is today.'

Life is unfathomable and complex. One way or the other, we cannot tell what will come to pass. Risk does not increase simply because we choose to take it. It is ever present in the same amount, whether we trudge intrepidly forward or struggle to remain where we are.So fuel your dreams with the courage to make them real. Allow your fragile heart to love without restraint in order to make it strong. Acknowledge your ignorance so you will continue to learn. And experience the vibrancy of life so that when it ends, you will not be burdened by regret.'Its true you don't know what you've got until its gone, but its also true you don't know what you've been missing until it arrives.'

2moro , going to have dinner with huimin and the gals from tempus exhibi, well, look forward to this dinner as we have been a long time nv met. Hmmm.. it is the galz time.

i fig out that relationship will least satisfy my happiness and goals . Love will blind u and u nv knows...Thank u very much , i am jolly happy with my single life now.I am been loved by many and I just lacked of loves to give away it's not i nv try. I truly believe in fate when coming to relationship. Sorry , i can't help it ! :P
gtg slp nw

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